Songs in My Phone

It is said that music always tells someone's story. I find it true. In more than one occasion, I was able to either relate my own experiences and emotions to a song. And in a lot of times, I use songs to express feelings which I cannot.
It is said that music always tells someone’s story. I find it true. In more than one occasion, I was able to either relate my own experiences and emotions to a song. And in a lot of times, I use songs to express feelings which I cannot.

 

I thought it was going to be quite easy. Pfft! Just a bunch of songs… I love songs… This is a piece of cake! But I honestly find it quite challenging now. Haha! Music was meant to be listened to whether it is being reviewed or blogged or what not. With the restriction of time and space, I will do my best to not make this entry not look too messy. I am wishing right now that WordPress has an “Insert Table” feature.

I have a total of about 60+ songs downloaded in my phone at the moment and I have caterogized them into 8 to make it easier to explain. I believe the mechanics were to choose 10 favorites songs, pick out a favorite line, and explain. Demanding lang?!! While writing this, the list have already been prepared below so as I go through them, I will try to put my comments along the way.

Let’s start this off…

 

Feel-good Playlist
(These are the types of songs that although they may have good lyrics, I listen to them more because of the melody.)

Fast Car (Tracy Chapman)
Islands in the Stream (Dolly Parton & Kenny Rogers)
Happy (Pharell)

Someday We’ll Know (Mandy Moore)
♫ So many questions, I need an answer…Two years later you’re still on my mind…Is true love just once in a lifetime? I’m speeding my the place that I met you for the 107th time tonight…Someday we’ll know if love can move a mountain…someday we’ll know why I wasn’t meant for you. ♪

Seasons of Love (Rent)
This makes me smile. A couple of years ago, the BFF and I said this was our birthday song for ourselves 🙂

Akala Mo (Aiza Seguerra)
 ♫ Akala mo hindi ko nakita na maligaya ka pag ako ay masaya… Akala mo hindi ko naisip na kasama ako sa inyong panaginip…Bawat sabihin ko alam ko nakinig ka…Akala mo siguro hindi ko nakita…Akala mo hindi ko pansin, akala mo hindi ko alam…Mahal mo nga ako kahit hindi mo man sabihin, akala mo hindi ko napsin…Akala mo ganon lang yon, alam ko yon kahit noon…Akala mo hindi ko napansin… ♪
Potassium mode this song! Promise! This is a recent additional to my playlist. And very significant too! Having a somewhat long-time “love interest but it just never got there until eventually it just can’t happen anymore” then you later on find out from him with his own mouth that it was should have-could have moment for him too about you – but no! Haaayyy…. this is my song for it… haaaayyy ulit.

Crazy Love (Mindy Gledhill)
I love this because at one point the BFF told me I was this. Simply because of the lyrics “Nobody knows I am a secret spy.” Lol! It puts emphasis and compliment to my “skill” of stalking people! Looool!

Dati (Sam Conception)
♫ Ikaw ang kasama buhat noon, ikaw ang pangarap hanggang ngayon…Di ba’t ikaw nga yung reyna at ako ang yong hari…Ako yong princesa sagip mo palagi…Ngunit ngayon’y marami nang nabago’t nangyari…Hindi ang pag tingin, na gaya parin ng dati.♪
I first heard this song while driving and I found it really cute and endearing. There’s just nothing like the first love – all innocent and so many funny memories and inside jokes to share.

Nothing’s Gomna Stop Us Now (Starship)
♫ Let them say we’re crazy I don’t care about that. Put your hand in my hand, baby, don’t ever look back. Let the world around us just fall apart, baby, we can make it if we’re heart to heart. And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever, nothing’s gonna stop us now. And if this world runs out of lovers, we’ll still have each other, nothings gonna stop us now. I’m so glad I found you, I’m not gonna loose you, whatever it takes I will stay here with you. Take you to the good times, see you to the bad times. Whatever it takes is what I’m gonna do. Let them say we’re crazy, what do they know? Put your arms around me, baby, don’t ever let go! ♪
I believe that love is supposed to be like this. Fun and worth going against the world for.

 

Strong-Strongan Playlist
(As the category suggest, for me, I interpret these songs as songs of survival especially that of an unfortunate heartache. Then after all that hell, you just sit back and watch those people screw up on their own. hehe.)

You Haven’t Seen the Last of Me (Cher)
Set Fire to the Rain (Adele)

Best Thing I Never Had (Beyonce)
♫ What goes around comes back around…There was a time I thought that you did everything right. No lies, no wrongs, I must have been out of my mind. So when I think of the times that I almost loved you, you showed your a$$ and I saw the real you. Thank God you blew it, thank God I dodged the bullet. I’m so over you so baby good lookin’ out. I wanted you back, I’m so through with that. Honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had… So sad you’re hurt, boohoo, did you expect me to care? You don’t deserve my tears. I guess that’s why they ain’t there…. I bet it sucks to be you right now! I know you want me back, it’s time to face the fact that I’m one that’s got away. Lord knows that it will take another place, another time, another world, another life, thank God I found the good in goodbye ♪

Irreplaceable (Beyonce)
Keep talking that mess that’s fine. But could you walk and talk at the same time… You must not know about me.. I can have another you in a minute, matter of fact he’ll be here in a minute. Don’t you ever for a second get to thinking you’re irreplaceable ♪

Black Heart (Stooshe)
Daddy, I’ve fallen for a monster…he’s got a black heart! ♪

Curse Me Good (The Heavy)
If you’re looking for a fight, well I’m a war machine… And if you wanna lie about something, then make it something worth lying for. And if you need to curse my name, curse me good! Don’t you smile at my face, and spit on my back. Do you kiss your mother with mouth like that? ♪
I love this song most. So much attitude in it. Haha. I can imagine it being a girl’s song, and my gawd! He better hide somewhere he can never be found! Lol!

Skyscraper (Demi Lovato)
You can take everything I have, you can break everything I am, like I’m made of glass, like I’m made of paper, go on and try to tear me down, I will be rising from the ground, like a skyscraper… All my windows still are broken but I’m standing on my feet.. Go run, run, run, I’m gonna stay right here, watch you disappear… It’s a long wat down, but I am closer to the clouds up here ♪

Karma (Alicia Keys)
Weren’t you the one who said that you don’t want me anymore. And how you need your space and give the keys back to your door. And how I cried and tried and tried to make you stay with me. And still you said your love was gone and that I had to leave… And when you came home you’d always have some sorry excuse. Half explaining to me like I’m just some kind of a fool… What goes around comes around, what goes up must come down. Now who’s cryin’, desirin’ to come back to me.. It’s called Karma baby ♪

Over You (Daughtry)
Now that it’s all said and done, I can’t believe you were the one, to build me up and tear me down like an old abandoned house. What you said when you left, just left me cold and out of breath, I felt if I was in way too deep, guess I let you get the best of me. Well, I never saw it coming, I should’ve started running a long, long time ago… You took a hammer to these walls, dragged the memories down the hall. Packed your bags and walked away, there was nothing I could say. And when you slammed the front door shut, a lot of others opened up. So did my eyes so I could see that you never were the best for me…And I never thought I’d doubt you, I’m better off without you more than you, more than you know. I’m slowly getting closure, I guess it’s really over, I’m finally getting better. And now I’m picking up the pieces, spending all of these years putting my heart back together. ‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through, I got over you. ♪

 

Moving On Playlist

Today My Life Begins (Bruno Mars)
I’ve been working hard so long… My fragile heart’s been done so wrong. I wondered if I’d ever heal again… I’m learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget… Yesterday has come and go and I’ve learned how to leave it where it is… I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me, leave the past behind me. Today my life begins… A whole new world is waiting it’s mine for the taking, I know I can make it… ♪

Stitches and Burns (Fra Lippo Lippi)
People say that I’m a fool well I don’t know. At least I found out what it takes to be strong… Now I don’t want to see you anymore. Don’t want to be the one to play your game. Not even if you smile, your sweetest smile. Not even if you beg me, Darling, please… Seems like everything must come to an end… Time after time, nothing that I can do. Day after day, leaving the past behind. Coming to terms with stitches and burns and learning to fly again ♪

Don’t Look Back (She & Him)
Don’t look back all you’ll ever get is the dust from the steps before… ♪

Everybody Plays the Fool (The Main Ingredient)
Before you do anything rash, dig this… Everybody plays the fool sometime. There’s no exception to the rule .Listen, baby, it may be factual, may be cruel. I ain’t lyin’, everybody plays the fool? Falling in love is such an easy thing to do and there’s no guarantee that the one you love is gonna love you… Lovin’ eyes they cannot see a certain person could never be. Love runs deeper than any ocean. You can cloud your mind with emotion. How can you help it when the music starts to play and your ability to reason is swept away. Heaven on earth is all you see. You’re out of touch with reality and now you cry but when you do, next time around someone cries for you… ♪
I love this one because, as I was advised once, “the first step to moving on is acknowledging your own mistakes too and accepting the fact that you let yourself be played as the fool.

 

Ampalaya Playlist
(Kainlangan pa bang i-memorize to?)

Why (Avril Lavinge)
It’s not supposed to hurt this way… ♪

Jar of Hearts (Christina Perri)
No I can’t take one more step towards you coz all that’s waiting is regret… You’ve lost the love I loved the most… I hear you’re asking all around if I am anywhere to be found… I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed but you broke all your promises. And now you’re back you don’t get to get me back… ♪

Insensitive (Jann Arden)
How do you block the sound of a voice you’d know anywhere?… I really should have known by the time you drove me home, by the vagueness in your eyes, your casual goodbyes, by the chill in your embrace, the expression on your face… How do you teach your heart from trying to fall in love again? I’m one of the closen few who went ahead and fell for you… Maybe you might have some advisee to give on how to be Insensitive. ♪

Too Late (Carole King)
One of us is changing or maybe we just stopped trying… It used to be so easy living here with you. You were light and breezy and I knew just what to do. Now you look so unhappy and I feel like a fool… But it’s too late, baby, now it’s too late. You know we really did try to make it. Something inside has died and I can’t hide it, no, I just can’t fake it… ♪

Just a Dream (Cover by Sam Tsui & Christina Grimmie)
It was only just a dream… ♪

Just Like a Pill (Pink)
You’re just like a pill. Instead of making me better, you’re making me ill… ♪

Breakeven (Maddi Jane)
What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you? What am I supposed to say when I’m all choked up and you’re ok? I’m falling to pieces…. When a heart breaks no it don’t break even… ♪

Need You Now (Lady Antebellum)
Picture perfect memory scattered all around the floor… And I’d rather hurt than feel nothing at all… And I wonder if I ever cross your mind, for me it happens all time…. ♪

 

Danceable Playtist

You Make Me Wanna (Unknown)
U Got It Bad (Usher)
Too Close (Next)
Rap Das Armas (Cidinho & Doca)
Blurred Lines (Robin Thicke)
Love Sex and Magic (Justin Timberlake & Ciara)

Danza Kuduro (Don Omar)
Hmmmm….. I don’t know squat what this song is saying pero may killing factor this song. Never in my lifetime did I ever think that I’d be associating such a song to a “heart feeling.” Long story short, I remember someone with this song.

 

Rocker Chick
 (I have always been one. The rocker inside me got revived when I got addicted to a TV series called “Supernatural”. A tale of two brothers hunting down unworldly creatures. Definitely rock-soundtrack material.)

Carry On My Wayward Song (Kansas)
Halik (Kamikazee)
Heat of the Moment (Asia)
Highway to Hell (AC/DC)

 

Not that I’m hoping for anything, trip lang mag-emote

I’m Never Gonna Give You Up (Frank Stallone & Cynthia Rhodes)
I’m Going Home (Chris Daughtry)
Ordinary People (John Legend)

After All (Peter Cetera)
After all the stops and starts, we keep coming back to these two hearts… And this is meant to be, forever you and me… After all. ♪

When I Was Your Man (Bruno Mars)
When I Was Your Man (Cover by Madilyn Bailey)
When my friends talk about you all it does is just tear me down. Cause my heart breaks a little when I hear your name… ♪
There are a couple of songs in my playlist with few variations. It’s sometimes because the song is originally sang by a guy and maybe at someone I might have related to it, so I look for female versions.

Try Sleeping with a Broken Heart (Alicia Keys)
Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart? Then you can try sleeping in my bed.. ♪
Sometimes we do not understand how hard some situations are unless we experience them ourselves. I thought this song was one of those emote songs telling you how much a heartbreak feels, but to my understanding, it’s daring the listener, not to get their heart broken, but “let’s see if you can make it? Cause you’ve got no idea how much I’m dealing with right now.”

The Famous Final Scene (Bob Seger)
And how you tried to make it work, did you really think it could?  How you tried to make it last, did you really think it would? Like a guest who stayed too long, now it’s finally time to leave… Take it calmly and serene, it’s the famous final scene. It’s been coming on so long, you were just the last to know. It’s been a long time since you’ve smiled…  Now the stage has all been set and the nights are growing cold. Soon the winter will be here and there’s no one warm to hold. Now the lines have all been read and you knew them all by heart. Now you move toward the door, here it comes the hardest part. Try the handle of the road, feeling different feeling strange. This can never be arranged as the light fades from the screen. From the famous final scene. ♪
Like I said, Supernatural is an awesome TV series incorporated with rock soundtracks because of the “manly” nature of it’s concept. But what if there came a time when the main action hero went through one of the worst things like loosing someone dear? Girl mode would immediately think Celine Dion, Beyoncé. But this, nooooo. Even the “emote” track needed to be rock ballad! hehe. Loved the touch of the song during that scene.
Other than that, since I have a fascination for stage performances, how they related a sad experience to a stage setting made me even more crazy for the song! : )


Somebody That I Used to Know (Gotye)
Somebody That I Used to Know (Cover by Madilyn Bailey & Jake Coco)
Somebody That I Used to Know (Cover by Ingrid Michaelson)
Now and then I think of when we were together, like when you said you felt so happy you could die. Told myself that you were right for me but felt so lonely in your company. But that was love and it’s an ache I still remember… Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over but had me believing it was always something that I’d done. But I don’t wanna live that way, reading into every word you say, you said that you could let it go and I wouldn’t catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know ♪

Piano in the Dark (Nina)
Just as I walk through the door, I can feel your emotion. It’s pullin’ me back to love you… I know I’m caught up in the middle, I cry just a little when I think of letting go. I’m not caught up in the middle I cry just a little when I think of letting go ♪
Oh THAT feeling that you think you’re okey. Then all of a sudden, you remember something and you’re caught by surprise. Then it’s in that moment that you feel that little pinch somewhere inside that makes you just want to forget everything and run back but you know it’s not right but you feel like you want to, then you call for help but you think you’ll follow your own heart anyway. Then it’s you try to distract yourself but that next thing you’re doing reminds you again, you argue with yourself and you know you just have to stop it. But then again, you “cry just a little when you think of letting go”, then you’re back to square one. It’s vicious cycle! Whew! Sakit sa bangs!

You Were Meant for Me (Jewel)
Dreams last so long even after you’re gone… ♪
Ahhh… this one. When at one point you’ve planned so far ahead and can’t wait for your forever to start, then everything just stops. As Toni Gonzaga says, “How do I unlove you?”

Dreaming with a Broken Heart (John Mayer)
When you’re dreaming with a broken heart, the waking up is the hardest part. ♪

Better in Time (Leona Lewis)
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too… It will get better in time… No matter how hard it is, I’ll be fine without you! ♪

Love Takes Time (Mariah Carey)
Love takes time to heal when you’re hurting so much ♪

Just Give Me a Reason (Pink ft. Nate)
Just a second we’re not broken, just bent… And we can learn to love again… ♪

 

Others

You and I (Lady Gaga)
Almost There (Princess and the Frog – Disney)
Do You Want to Build a Snowman? (Frozen – Disney)
For the First Time in Forever (Frozen – Disney)
For the First Time in Forever (Reprise) (Frozen – Disney)
Let it Go (Frozen – Disney)
Love is an Open Door (Frozen – Disney)

 

There are may songs which I listen to simply because I like a certain part of it’s tune, it’s lyrics, then I hit the “Next” button on my playlist.

Well, there it goes. As much songs that I know, these are so far the only ones I have in my phone (thank God!). I know it the lyrics is saying a lot. But for now, it’s what’s keeping my sane in my long bus rides to and from work. Kaya wag nang umapila!! ^__^

 Of the many songs I relate to, this is for now one that sings my current stage. I really saved it for last. Enjoy.

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I mentioned in my previous blog that nothing can make us remember so much like scent does because scents, we may come across it briefly, but it, and all the emotions that comes along with it, gets encoded right into the core of our memories, locked away and silent until it gets unleashed again. And Music, I believe is next other channel that do the same amount of damage (in a good or bad way).
I mentioned in my previous blog that nothing can make us remember so much like scent does because scents, we may come across it briefly, but it, and all the emotions that comes along with it, gets encoded right into the core of our memories, locked away and silent until it gets unleashed again. And Music, I believe is next other channel that do the same amount of damage (in a good or bad way).

 

The BFF’s entry is here.

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Wonders of the Olfactics

I have read somewhere that “Smells love nostalgia”. And in my own experiences, it’s true. A single whiff of a scent (especially scents we never expected we’ll come across at that time) sends crazy triggers to our brains and suddenly everything is real in our head. I believe that the memory of a scent is more powerful than that of something we can physically see or touch to the point that it has a stronger power to completely transport us to another place and time in our memory. Even memories that we have forgotten whether briefly or a lot longer.

 

So it was the 6th of April 2014, a Sunday (it’s the first day of the week – everyone else’s Monday). From the second I woke up, I knew I was going to be late so I was busy since then, preparing myself and rushing to the bus. Half way in the bus transit I knew I wouldn’t make it on time for work so I waited to be in a place where I am sure taxis will pass by. When I got there, I got off  the bus, waited a couple of minutes then found my cab. I opened the door, sat myself in the back and instructed where to be driven to. I was very worried that I’ll be late that I don’t even recall greeting the driver good morning. Then in the middle of my rush (as if may iba akong mapupuntahan sa loob ng cab!), I suddenly stopped. Literally! Everything stopped. My panic, my thoughts of being late, my worry of another expensive taxi ride – Everything! Then I realized it.

Brief history muna. Living here in UAE, one must learn to adjust or be creative with how to protect one’s nose with the scents around us especially those which I consider which “just isn’t right for anyone!” And one of the inevitable encounters are in cabs.

With that brief history said, back to my story.

I was smelling a familiar scent. In fact, so familiar, I literally wished that there was someway that my smartphone could capture it. It was not one of those just-isn’t-right-scents which I was talking about. It was the smell of lemon-ish and-ish clean car-ish. Then I calmed down realizing that my brain was going sending memory triggers of my cab rides in Philippines. Yes, the cab I was riding basically had the scent of a Philippine taxi interior. It was a scent so familiar that it piled on my feelings of homesickness lately. I found myself actually closing my eyes, feeling relaxed, just blank, and allowing this scent to invade my nostrils.

The cab ride was just about 5 minutes which made me wish it could have been longer. In that 5 minutes, I was able to recall my cab rides going home from somewhere, going to Ayala, going to school, my late night trips – a lot of things I missed. Wishing that I could live that memory right then and there. But I was already infront of my office gate and I remember giving the driver a bigger bill just so he can take more time collecting my change and I can have more time getting lost in the ambrosia of his car.

Guadalupe, Makati
Guadalupe, Makati

As soon as I sat in my station and before doing any work, I went online started typing “Manila” and looking at pictures of home. Hoping that my “teleporting” continues while I could still remember that smell.

All the pictures made me a little sad because I know I’m not really there. But of all the pictures, this one made me look a little longer. It hit me right where it should. It’s the Guadalupe area of EDSA. Not too far from that buildings on the right is our Makati home. A place I came to love when I lived in Philippines for 4 years.

You see, I have been having this feeling that I’m meant to be there this time. Like something is calling me back. However, reality keeps whispering to me that it’s not the right time to go home yet. So until then, get ready for these episodes of homesickness. Haaayyy….

 

 

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Parting words...
About the dead probably isn’t the best example right now but this gets the gist of it…